What I have in my heart I'll take to my grave

barely trust em, they're all puppets

2009-11-23T15:58:08Z

I think it's great how you used to great
I can't hate on how you choose to relate
But i know that you had the potential
I understand why you wanted to let go
A lot of pressure
In the middle of those shoulders
And we ain't gettin nothin but older
Ain't nothin' changed
But the day we run from
But nobody knows that
Better than you huh?

lately

2009-10-22T12:04:21Z

I find myself wondering why people can't stick to their word. Maybe it's just me and I always say what's on my mind...I can't stand passive aggressive behavior! Also, I may suck at communication but I know how to treat a human being with some sort of respect. But you have to give it out to get it back.

In closing, after the past year (even few years) I have definitely seen who my true friends are.

horoscope...dead on as usual!

2009-10-20T19:25:26Z

Upsets and unexpected changes in relationships are extremely likely at this time. Feeling the need to be free spirited and independent arises in you, making you more selfish, independent, and unwilling to tolerate being stifled or put down by others. You also rebel against others who are domineering or rigid in their way of dealing with other people and especially you!

nicolenotrust @ 2009-10-19T00:05:00

2009-10-19T04:06:00Z

Has had just about enough of this!

♥ ♥ ♥

2009-10-03T21:40:45Z

I love Halloween time!!!!!!!! yay fall =)

nicolenotrust @ 2009-09-27T03:54:00

2009-09-27T07:54:57Z

They want us to fight, but we just want to get high
Work all day, all night, trying to get fly
When I get some money I'mma buy me some time
I can't fight your war until I'm finished with mine

Happy Birthday Sarah (yesterday)!!!!! & Ani DiFranco (today) !!!

2009-09-23T16:44:33Z

yesterday was Sarah's birthday and we went out to dinner @ Kyoto! Super fun experience, the crazy cooking man Stan was awesome! (Ha! Stan the Man!) So silly watching vegetables get thrown at all my friends! And then Chocolate Bar after was also a-mazing as always! Chocolate Banana Cream Pie martini, need I say more?! NOM NOM NOM

I'm starting to realize more and more what matters and doesn't as I get older and it wasn't even my birthday! what's with these realizations lately?! An idea of renting a huge house in the Delaware/Richmond area came up last night between Sarah, Erin, Brandi & I...I don't know if I could handle living with that many bitches (or afford something like that) but the idea is enticing! I need out of this dumb house and I need to leave Anna the stupid cunt landlord in the dust! Fucking biatch!!!

I NEED CHANGES!

(I still can't believe I got Sarah a seafoam green purse for her birthday! hahahaha puke! I hate that color!!! BUT she loves it and that's all that matters!)

P.S.

2009-09-01T17:23:49Z

I LOVE THIS WEATHER! Bring on Fall!!! and the Cider Mill ♥

nicolenotrust @ 2009-08-26T13:23:00

2009-08-26T17:23:29Z

everything sucks.

GIMME!!!

2009-08-16T17:41:51Z

UO employee appreciation, you're going to be the death of my bank account

The shoe is now on the other foot and it feels effing awful

2009-06-19T15:30:19Z

I want this so bad it hurts.
PERSEVERANCE!!! DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

Today is No Doubt and it was looking pretty gloomy out there, thank god its clearing up! Considering you can't bring blankets or chairs onto the lawn at Darien Lake! haha wtf?! when did that start!? Whatever! $10 lawn is ok by me!

I wish my uterus wasn't falling out right now, bah!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDSAY HEARTS!!!
I had a great time with you last night!

Not so strong without these open arms

2009-06-18T18:30:11Z

I am never reading old LJ entries again!

tripping on memory layne

2009-06-18T06:42:36Z

I'm going to sit here and listen to the rain until I figure out the answers to all of my problems.

All I know is, I refuse to give up on what I want.

Hysteric

2009-06-18T04:41:29Z

No longer, no longer
What you ask
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, the cinders
They light the path
Of these strange steps
Take us back, take us back

Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me

Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me

No wonder, no wonder
Other half
Strange steps
Heels turn black
The cinders, they splinter
And light the path
Of these strange steps
Trace us back, trace us back

Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me

Flow sweetly, hang heavy
You suddenly complete me
You suddenly complete me

Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysteric, hysteric
Hysterical

I had a crazy snake dream!!!

2009-06-14T15:58:40Z

and this is what the internet told me about snake dreams:

"Snake

To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced. Alternatively, the snake may be seen as phallic and thus symbolize temptation, dangerous and forbidden sexuality. If you are afraid of the snake, then it signifies your fears of sex, intimacy or commitment. The snake may also refer to a person around you who is callous, ruthless, and can't be trusted. As a positive symbol, snakes represent healing, transformation, knowledge and wisdom. It is indicative of self-renewal and positive changes.

To see the skin of a snake in your dream, represents protection from illnesses. "

nicolenotrust @ 2009-06-13T18:50:00

2009-06-13T22:50:38Z

nevermind.

Acid Tongue

2009-06-12T20:37:04Z

I went to a cobbler
to fix a hole in my shoe
he took one look at my face and said
"I can fix that hole in you."
I beg your pardon, I'm not looking for a cure
I've seen enough from my friends
in the depths of the God-sick blues

You know I am a liar
You know I am a liar
Nobody helps a liar

'Cause I've been down to Dixie
and dropped acid on my tongue
tripped upon the land 'til enough was enough
I was a little bit lighter and
adventure on my sleeve
I was a little drunk and looking for company
So I found myself a sweetheart
with the softest of hands
we were unlucky in love but I'd do it all again

we built ourselves a fire
we built ourselves a fire
you know I am a liar
you know I am a liar

and you don't know what I've done

and by the rollin' river
is exactly where I was
there was no snake or cure for unlucky in love
to be lonely is a habit
like smoking or taking drugs
and I've quit them both
but man, was it rough

and now I am tired
it just made me tired
let's build ourselves a fire
let's build ourselves a fire

hi

2009-06-11T03:17:23Z

I would like to rewind about 4 years pls

but for something more interesting:

PeeWee and I know how to have a good time!

today's horoscope....dead on again!

2009-06-10T21:04:42Z

Withdrawing from emotional social contact is favored now, for even when you are with others you are likely to feel separate and alone. Sadness and disappointments in your personal life are also probable now. It is a time to be quiet and to look objectively at how your relationships are going. Though not a pleasurable time, this can be a beneficial period in which to learn more about love and what you truly value.

why is it ya don't know what ya got til it's gone?!?!

nicolenotrust @ 2009-06-06T15:32:00

2009-06-06T19:33:33Z

heavy heart.

kinda weird...

2009-06-04T18:56:28Z

I consider it pretty odd when an ex best friend calls me her ex girlfriend. I find it even weirder when she bones my sloppy seconds! find your own fuck buddies!

I need to get out of Buffalo.

thank you horoscope! you know me so well!

2009-06-03T16:26:53Z

You want to be wanted more than needed by someone you can have a long term relationship with.

25

2009-05-26T17:03:05Z

sooo this is 25 huh? feels no different really....graduating from college on the other hand? THAT feels fantastic!!!

$$$

2009-05-20T05:16:48Z

I WENT WITH THE BLACK SHOES! they better get here in time for my bday!!!

feedback needed!!!

2009-05-19T07:20:16Z

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